Day 10 & Ultrasound

My Mom & I cheesing it up for the camera. My Mom came with me today for my ultrasound to check my ovulation progress after finishing Clomid. My lining (size5) and eggs (each around size 10 wanting 18) were not fully mature yet but they were consistent in size with each other in comparison. So we're going to do an additional three days of shots to help progress my really resistant ovaries to continue to develop. I did have three eggs that were starting to develop which is great! Two on my right ovary and one on the left. This gives me a lot of hope because now I hopefully know why we weren't getting pregnant all last year on Femara, my eggs weren't fully developing after medication, even with 100 mg of Clomid and metformin. It gives me hope that it's not microscopic endometriosis in the lining of my fallopian tubes. But if that is the case I know that God has a plan for me & my family. I feel so blessed to have been given the family and husband that I have. They have been a wonderful support to lean on through these emotional times. I'm also very grateful to my Heavenly Father who I know loves me and hasn't forgotten about me. I am thankful for all the many wonderful women and men who have also had to deal with infertility who have shared their pain and experiences with me. #thankyou #familysareforever #family #lds #infertility #pcos #clomid #femara #fertility #ultrasound #pcosfighter #love #hope #optimism

Femara

IAfter a year of being on Femara and a 6 month break from all fertility treatments we decided to try again. I am a little scared because it wrecks havoc on my body. They said my PCOS is more androgen driven than insulin. I have always been so sensitive to medication that for a long time I thought I didn't have PCOS just hormonally vulnerable. Or you can call it denial either works! 🙈 Femara changes your hormones, it was originally given to breast cancer patients to help remove estrogen that feeds breast cancer cells. I had horrible unrelenting migraines that two imitrex would hardly touch. I had never experienced being so tired...it was so deep I felt it in my bones. It was partly due to falling asleep and waking up with a migraine I am sure. So this water drinking,  hold the butter girl turned into diet coke sugar free candy eating girl. I felt like I had lost my identity. I stopped working out which was ocd for me prior. My hair was falling out rapidly! Then the last month we tried on Femara they doubled my dose and put me on a steroid. I was terrified to say the least. I was breaking out with acne, hair falling out, migraine tired mess! I would boob to my husband that I was going to be the "hairless hairdresser" 😭😭😂😂 as funny as it was to say and joke I really would at times have mental breakdowns!

Cuddling this Sunday having a movie marathon together. Love this boy so much. He has always supported me and loved me unconditionally. 

PCOS & Our Fertility Journey

Hello! I started this post & my Instagram @kelli_ann_miller with mixed feelings. I wasn't sure if I wanted to share my pain and struggle but I guess here it goes! We are the Miller's, Brandon and I met 6 years ago at Dixie State University in trigonometry class. I have PCOS and we have struggled with fertility for the past 4 years. I will talk about our past treatments, current treatment and things that have helped me with my PCOS. Just wait you will want to see my before pic! Ekkk 🙈 (PCOS can be a BEAST👹!) Feel free to ask questions, give advice or simply follow. This is our life although we are more than our struggles...even though fertility & pcos can seem like it is your life!